Wednesday, October 28, 2015

Big 3-0.

I've been wistfully thinking of the good ol' blog for a really really long time. A couple years, in fact.  But for whatever various (and dumb) reasons, I've stayed away.  No More! I miss recording my own thoughts as well as the happenings of our not-so-little family.

What better way to dive back in than the eve of my 30th birthday?

30. I am 30. (well, almost).  You know? I have not gone through any sort of age crisis, stress, depression, whatever. I think because we have so many kids, I kinda feel like 'its about time!' Im thirty.  I remember a family member really, really having a hard time their entire 29th year really stressing about turning 30. Im grateful I haven't had those feelings.

Pardon as I wax sentimental for a bit.

A portion of me is a little surprised? (though how it can come as a surprise beats me...) that I'm here.  Not in comparison to my friends (they're almost all in the 30s club) but in my family. Im the littles sister. Bud the Pud. The Fridget. Me and Evie keep our family young! but now....Im right there with the rest of the official Adults.  I guess with multiple 40 yr old siblings, our family isn't so Young anymore... :)

But really- I am so happy and satisfied with my life. I am pretty gosh darn thrilled with where life has landed me on my 30th birthday.

I am married to a wonderful, good man. We just celebrated our 10 yr anniversary in NYC.
I have six (Six!!) incredibly beautiful children.  As I was cooing with Lucy tonight, I asked her if she was my crowning achievement for my 30 yrs- and she smiled knowingly. :)
We 'own' our own home. A beautiful, beautiful home. I LOVE our house. I love our yard, our view.
We live in an incredible ward.
I have a group of girl friends I Never thought I would have.
My husband has a good, steady job.
We have 2 cars.
We have 3 ducks and a great garden.
I am able to stay home with our kiddos and homeschool.
I have gotten to somewhat tour the world. Or at least Europe.
I have been extensively around the USA.
I have a good, solid education which allows me to greater appreciate the world around me.

I have gone through life with minimal heart ache.  Or rather, I have had a fair amount of heart ache, but have been able to find joy or peace through it.

I feel so incredibly blessed and grateful.

Knowing that this is basically a private journal now, I feel comfortable (enough) to express my innermost thoughts-

I am grateful for the child and youth I was- for the choices I made- that has led me to this point. I give God glory and thanks, and recognize I would have NOTHING without him, yet I also acknowledge that past choices lead us down certain paths and all choices have consequences.  While I certainly regret decisions I made in past relationships or in squandering different opportunities afforded me, I am grateful for the majority of good decisions I did make.

Following the counsels of the prophets and of church leaders led to minimal sufferings and heartaches through high school and college.  I am so grateful to the Past me, and that through the Grace of God, that I am here now.

I have a LONG way to go- and a LOT of improving to do. But I am also at peace. Peace knowing I am doing what He would have me do, and I am where He would have me be. Need I do more? of course.  But I am grateful to feel that I am on the right path.

30. This is going to be GREAT. I really look forward to life in the future- and I hope the 30 yr old me can make the decisions daily so that in 10 yrs I can again write out that 40 yr old me is grateful for 30 yr old me. :)

My personal goals for my 30th year:
- feel heathy and strong.
- simplify life and home through minimizing and organizing that I have time to get back to doing things I enjoy- revisit my hobbies.
-increase in testimony and faith
-be a greater servant and friend
-reach out to family

30. Maybe not so flirty, but definitely thriving. :D

It's gonna be great.

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